Sometimes, it gets a little bit lonely… then, you remember that you have friends…
Recently, one of the messages in the comboxes called me a “hater”. Let’s start with my tête-à-tête with my pleasant interlocutor. Their words are in italics; my reply is in boldface.
Vara, you are a mean-spirited person, through and through. I am continually amazed at the passionate enjoyment you take in your hatred for others. Yes, it is hatred. It’s obvious and is not at all disguised by your highly intelligent and interesting commentary. May God have mercy on you…and on me for judging you, though I think I judge you correctly.
Please, note the above. Firstly, it’s immature… “I am constantly amazed at the passionate enjoyment you take in your hatred for others”. This person does not know me, has never met me, and is very upset that I am standing up against the modernists. He is upset that I am not “playing nice”. There is a priest who wrote me and said, “Keep on! I am a priest and I am forced to be diplomatic”. I’ll tell you what, Jason… I hate Satan and his works. I fight such with all my powers. I hate dishonesty. I hate duplicity. I hate those who use power to hurt others. I hate those who do filthy actions and use their position to cover it. That’s why I hate SVS and all its works.
Dear Jason, prove this to me, and I’ll apologise. Prove to me with actionable evidence that Eric Iliff was not sexually assaulted by a staff member at SVS and I’ll apologise. In public, no less. That’s easy enough. As an MP priest in Europe said to me, “That (Eric’s assault) was disgusting! The place should be closed immediately”. Dear Jason, prove to me with actionable evidence that Fr Mikhail Shuvar was never assaulted by Uniate thugs or that His Holiness Kirill did not note his passing, and I’ll retract everything that I’ve written against the Unia and Uniates. Dear Jason, prove to me with actionable evidence that Eric Tosi did not gloss over the loss of four years of records and that JP acquiesced in it with his silence, and I’ll retract everything I’ve written about JP.
In short, you can’t. Jason… you are a living embodiment of “cheap grace”… your judgement is immature, ill-considered, and without foundation. You are attempting to prove yourself “holier than thou”. Your nappies are full and reek, sir. Do have them changed before you tangle with adults. You’re in checkmate. You’re defending the indefensible. In addition, you expect everyone to meet your sterile American suburban shibboleths. Guess what… if you think that such makes me “hateful”… I can’t change your opinion. However, you may spout off to whomever you will and wherever you will, but I will not give this particular topic from you any further air. I think that you understand me. Go back to JP and Hatfield and cry, for all I bloody care. I have only so much God-given time and I don’t spare time for folderol or squeamishness. If you don’t like me or way that I express myself… go elsewhere. I shan’t change… and most of my readership would agree with me.
To say the least, the support I received humbles me… such friends… you keep me going, dear ones. I did not put them in the comboxes for a simple reason… it was so that an OCA fanatic wonk couldn’t trace it. Here’s a sampling (names removed to protect the innocent… and to stymie the guilty):
- Mean-spirited? Nonsense. Just a typically over the top Russian who speaks her mind when confronted with uptight Western hypocrisy!
- Phooey… this is how they always react when you won’t “play nice” and go along with the newest and latest guru they bring forward. I was told recently that I am “part of the problem, instead of part of the solution” because I won’t smile and nod with the new OCA power players and their cronies…
- Gandhi said, “First, they ignore you; then, they laugh at you; then, they fight you; then, you win”. Guess this falls under “fight you?”
- Christ is risen! My dearest Vara, I was laughing with the very first sentence from “Jason!” What really got me was the backhanded comment, “your highly intelligent and interesting commentary!” What a mixed-up bag of nuts that guy is. The OCA is really quite diseased, isn’t it? What more can one say? Their worshipful attitude toward Paffhausen is absurd, as well as thoroughly disgusting. You have hit the nail right on the head, Vara, which is why they are so upset with you. I’ll keep you in my prayers! Big hugs…
- I love that quote… [X] quoted it to me awhile back…
- Vara, I disagree with you on a number of things, some of them significant, but “mean-spirited” would never be a word that I would use to describe you. “Disguised”… in any way… is also not a term which strikes me as remotely appropriate in your case. “Strong-willed?” Absolutely. “Resolute” and “not-easily-swayed”… goes without saying, for anyone who has been paying attention at all. But your devotion to the Church and to Christ I would not question for a moment, and your fairness and compassion for those who are most vulnerable, over those who are most powerful, will put me squarely in your corner at the toughest of times.
There one has it. I do know what tactics the SVS/Syosset sorts use. They start by calling names; then, they smarmily inform you that you are either “hateful” or “disturbed”. There is a group of about 20 such on the Orthodox Forum who are the most public of these offenders. Quite often, they trot out this AOCANA priest named Washburn to give his “expert” opinion (he’s one of the ex-vagantes under Gillquist)… he’s a “therapist” and “conflict resolution coach” (I kid you not… he’s nothing but a California New Age Positivist with a VERY thin Orthodox veneer). You’ve all heard their cretin-like Newspeak drivel… no need to bore you.
In short, kiddies, I CARE. I CARE DEEPLY. People who care about things passionately use strong language and images. To put it another way, LOVE drives me. I love the truth. I love Christ and His Church. I love unity. I love straightforwardness and clarity. That’s why I work hard on my two websites… it’s going to be the absolute best that I can do. Otherwise, I should go home and stop it all. I must be respectful of your time…
Are there things I hate? There are… I hate dishonesty, thievery, duplicity, BS, the use of the Church for private enrichment or to hurt the faithful, disunity, and those who spit on Christ’s Church through indifferentism or Renovationism. Are there any clerics who are dangerous in the extreme? Yes… Jonas Paffhausen. Reflect on what just happened. He went to Texas to meet with Anglican Proddie sectarians and he refused to tell you the truth of the matter. That’s EVIL. Add in the events of the last 18 months and I think that you can reach only one conclusion… Paffhausen delenda est (metaphorically, of course). He has displayed his indifference to the legitimate boundaries of Christ’s Body the Church many times… that alone is reason to complain to His Holiness Kirill to have this poseur removed. Never forget… the OCA is not autocephalous in fact… it’s only a minor and backward dependency of Moscow. How long must this charade last? God willing, not long…
Sunday 11 April 2010
Hey, it’s time to share Jason’s latest tirade with you. Reflect on the fact that this nappy-wearing toddler is serious (I kid you not):
Vara, by the way, my comment wasn’t specifically aimed at the one article above – I don’t want or need to prove anything you told me to prove as, actually, I am not as concerned about these issues as you must assume. I just thought it was about time to call you out and it applies to most of your comments. You are not fooling me, and I’m sure I am not the only one. In an illustrated dictionary your picture would be next to the entry for ‘hubris’.
For one who supposedly doesn’t have time, you sure devoted a lot of it to writing your long-winded defense of yourself. I’ll wait to see how long your next response is. ‘I have only so much God-given time’…you show in your pompous, long-winded, self-important comments that every day you have nothing but time on your hands. Maybe some of that time would be better spent in front of your icons doing prostrations or in church, confessing (but you need to think you HAVE something to confess before you’d want to, right?)
Jason… I do not parade my personal prayer life… that’s not done by grounded people… only a hubristic self-loving konvert would make the stupid comment you just made. I will keep it short… I have other and more pressing things on my plate today. You smile and approve when your idol Paffhausen kisses the naked bums of the Anglican sectarians. He belongs in an illustrated dictionary by “poseur” and “heretic” (“Orthodox” Feast of “St Francis”, indeed!). That proves the depth of your Orthodoxy… checkmate, again… your serve?
Oh, yes, the photo of Paffhausen sucking up to the Anglicans is still not up at oca.org as of 15.00 12 April… can you give me a reason, Jason? Hmm… or does JP get a “get out of jail free” card for being a shameless and rabid Renovationist? Moses… Kev… the rest of ya out there… let’s all take a swig from the little brown jug and cheer… if this is the best that the OCA fanatics can do… they’re not long for this world. Be good, all.